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Wednesday, May 18th, 2005

Time:9:55 pm.
I realized this week that i am ready to go and say goodbye. I am ready to have this place be a memory to me. I am ready to look back on it and say to myself "why did i care?" It's good though. because i'll be ready to leave and start a new life for myself. I'll be ready to be a freshman at college and not in the 13th grade. It seems like one of two things happens at this time of the year. Either you get insanely excited about leaving high school and discovering a new place with new friends or you get insanely sad and scared about leaving high school. There is a nervous excitement that is brewing in the pit of my stomach...it feels nice in a strange way. I had a talk today that really made me think... Do people know what they are doing when they do it? Consciously, do people think of the results of their actions. I don't know whether or not they do. But i do know that i am ready to leave Northern Virginia. I am ready to leave, go to college, pack up my stuff and move away. i will never live here when i am older because i think very few children turn out normal around here. It seems the majority or competitive, manipulative, demanding, posessive and have little awareness of the rest of the world in relation to themselves.


It will be refreshing to leave.
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Thursday, May 5th, 2005

Subject:i look homeless
Time:3:03 pm.
So...today was senior skip day (05/05/05) however i had the AP English test today...it was pretty hard...i think so at least. lots of people were saying that it was "Soooo easy" after the test, but people who say that usually suck when it comes to scoring, so screw the cocky bitches. anyways, after the exam i went and picked up taylor from Journalism and we went to FIVE GUYS...yum yum yum, and we devised a plan for her to ask Drew to prom. It was super cute, and I'm so proud that she was brave enough to do it. We got a hamburger from five guys and in ketchup she wrote "Prom?" on the inside of a bun. Then we went to Leaphart's classroom and got a paper plate and set it up. And i called Delinski to have her send Drew outside so he would be waiting. So, we went downstairs and he was there all excited for the hamburger and it was so cute because he didn't notice it at first. Anyways, he said yes and i'm so excited that our plan worked. Blah, i feel like crap. I have to go do some Physics homework...and Chris comes home tomorrow, and i need to wrap Dana's birthday present for tomorrow. I can't believe there is only like a month and a half until graduation...things go by so fast. Anyways, I hope everyone else had an exciting day!
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Wednesday, April 27th, 2005

Subject:i'm going to be a hokie next year...hoorah...
Time:9:26 pm.
So, I guess I am going to Virginia Tech next year. I'm trying to get really excited for it. i'm going to have a good time, i know...but still a part of me wishes i was going to Clemson, just because everyone is going to Tech, like i'm pretty sure that all of Lake Braddock's senior class is going to be in attendance next year...i'm going to run away from them though and pretend like i've never seen any of them before in my life. Oh well. Maybe Tech will go to another Bowl next year...but maybe they'll win instead of losing to Auburn. Anyways...AP exams start next week. I don't know anything about Nigeria, so basically I'm getting a 1 on my AP Gov't: Comparative exam. hahah, i think on the essays i'll just write about random supreme court cases in america...it will be splendid. That day is going to suck though, two ap tests in one day and both government. hahah and you get out at like 4:30 (or at least that is how ap euro was last year). NIICE. Oh, I got my PROM dress. hooray. it's black and halter and very like cocktail-ly and mature and not at all typical prom dress (strapless, long, sparkly, it's really beautiful and i'll be able to use it again for formals next year. We have graduation rehearsal on the day of prom, so we have to be at school at 8 and it doesn't end until 10. thats going to be awesome...i definitely want to be up so early on prom night so i fall asleep at like 2. hooray. We went to PF Changs tonight for dinner, it was sooo good. Chris, are you happy now that i'm updating????????????
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Sunday, March 6th, 2005

Time:9:46 pm.
I don't really know where my day goes...besides the fact that I slept it away. Roar... poetry project is due soon. I need to start narrowing down the ones I want to write about and answer those damn questions about. Oh and Pygmalion project is almost due too, seeing as how they're due to same day for the same class. Thank you. Deadline this week, and then senior meeting next next week, and then FLORIDA with tae tae. hooray, i need to escape this cold weather. I am so excited about Miami this summer. Aisha and I are already talking about what we are going to wear. I am crazy. Better go do some homework!
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Friday, February 18th, 2005

Subject:MONSTER TRUCK RALLY...
Time:10:57 pm.
I keep on thinking about our interview with Tom Davis, and his random comments. how he kept on saying "you know what i'm saying?" and chuckling. It makes me laugh...especially now that i've decided if he was an animal he'd be a wolf. Tomorrow, after work i am going out for my birthday, which is very exciting. and there is a three day weekend. and i am 18. and i got into Clemson. Life is muy bueno. oh, and how could i forget THE MONSTER TRUCK RALLY next saturday....i hope they say something like "start you engines" or "are you ready to rumble" something cliche like the basketball team's "rage in the cage" which i think we stole from another school, ahh Metress...i have a feeling like we are going to be the loudest in our Pablo shirts at this rally...i'll have to remember to get a camera in order to document this adventure properly. My life rocks...
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Thursday, February 3rd, 2005

Time:8:33 pm.
Something about this month always makes me insanely sad. Isn't that strange? especially since my birthday is in this month...I dunno though, ever since...middle school maybe? Maybe it's because everyone is so busy or maybe it is because its crappy weather, I dunno. I always feel like i just want to crawl into bed and sleep the month away and avoid having to deal with life. It's strange, i know. Anyways, i guess it's harder this year since Christopher is in Kentucky too. Who knows. I feel lonely...hopefully i won't feel that way on my birthday...because i'll have my mommy and daddy to cheer me up!
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Sunday, January 30th, 2005

Time:5:36 pm.
Today is so boring. i can't go anywhere because of the snow, damn you precipitation. Oh well, tomorrow i'm going to escape (hopefully) with everyone and have fun. Yesterday, no one came to shop. so there was no noise to drown out the annoying music...and now i have some stupid song stuck in my head (only 3 words) that repeat again and again. I have to think of an idea for a present to get Chris...but i have time since he isn't coming home in March. blah, even this post is boring. I think i'll go die.
p.s. when i turn my car on it shakes and i bounce up and down. that's safe, right?
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Sunday, December 19th, 2004

Subject:i strongly dislike you
Time:11:19 pm.
Work today from 9:30-5....i actually went crazy, i just stood on the ladder for like 45 minutes and looked off into space. and then i discovered that if i stand at a specific angle i can see a screen on the second level that flips promos. so i did that too. so all in all it was productive. very productive. I have to work christmas eve, but i work with Kristin, which is fun, and we are glad b/c we work the same shift for once in our freaking lives. Now, on with my life. I have discovered that patty cakes isn't all he's cracked up to be, by me and veronica. Sure, i miss him and all, but i kinda realized that he isn't as cool as i thought he was. He's really into looking cool. He came in today, and was talking about his frat, and drinking, and all these parties. and i kinda felt bad for him, because it was obvious that he just wanted everyone to think he was completely awesome, so out of pity i just acted like he was. Rob came in too. He was annoying as usual, but i acted like he was cool too because i was bored. and i listened to his stories, but i didn't pay attention. I actually rule at feigning interest. What else... I don't want to go to school tomorrow, hopefully there will be a two hour delay or cancellation. Oh goodness, i don't ever want to go to school. It's this wierd feeling when i think about it. Like i'll miss Lake Braddock, and then when i really start to think about it i won't miss that place at all. i'll just forget about most of the people and have new things to think about instead of old drama and old shit and old conversations and old feelings. It's like this annoying cycle where nothing ever ends, and because of that I will not miss lake braddock. My eyes hurt. The End.
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Monday, November 8th, 2004

Time:8:25 pm.
Today i almost got in a physical fight with a woman the post office. SHE WAS INSANE. i'm not joking, she actually was crazy. here is the situation:

My mommy and i were standing in line waiting for it to be our turn at the Burke Post Office. We were talking about how we had to rush my SAT scores to Clemson and how it cost 36 dollars! (more about that later.) When this woman standing in front of us, with only another woman separating us, started shaking her head. I thought this was wierd of course, but i didn't dwell...because it is rude to stare. Then all of a sudden, outta no where this forty year old woman turns around and stares at ME! I smile politely as most normal people would do...and she put out her arms and said "WHAT" but in a gangster sort of way...i gave her a puzzled look and turned around to see who she was talking to. But no one else seemed to notice this crazy woman. When i turned back around she was no longer facing me. At this point, she was huffing and sighing and stomping her feet. My mom and i continued on with our conversation until i notice that the woman had her middle finger all by itself, standing straight up. I poked my mother but unfortuantely she didn't notice. The woman leaned forward of the ramp and stuck her middle finger on the side of her head and cleared her throat. Then one of the teller people called for the next person and she CUT two people in line and went up to the teller. I was relieved because i was scared that she was about to wrestle me. She started yelling at the teller and the post office manager guy came out and started talking to her, and she started to yell at him. Then it was our turn and we went up to get my passport. When we were leaving i made eye contact with the woman and she stuck out her tongue at me...

I think she was possessed.
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Tuesday, October 12th, 2004

Subject:Thrift store tomorrow
Time:10:42 pm.
I am so thankful that i don't have to go to school tomorrow until 11:30. it makes me very happy that i do not have to take the PSATS. Veronica and I however are in search of two 80's dresses for our 80s homecoming, which i may mention that the boys are screwing up. Hmmm, i swear if one person shows up and does not have teased hair, blue eye shadow and a puffy dress heads will roll. heads will roll...
I am also thankful that i only have to go to 6th period once this week as well, thanks to the pep rally which i will not be attending on friday. Instead, the quest for the dresses will take place.
SO anyways, Veronica and I are getting up SO early to go to Ft. Belvior and look for dresses, if this fails i think i might cry.
I got my eyes checked today, and i might have to get glasses. Its funny though b/c my eyesight is actually 20-20 but it used to be way better so i'd get glasses for having perfect vision. The woman also told me how i should wear sunglasses and hats everywhere b/c i have green eyes and large pupils...i tried to explain that i rarely go outside and frolic but she would not have any of it.
Journalism meeting tomorrow, woohoo.
See ya later alligator. Katie
EMILY: summer 2005. canada. me. veronica. you. orgy.
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Sunday, September 19th, 2004

Subject:Miss Alabama won Miss America
Time:10:37 pm.
is it strange that i am so happy that Miss Alabama won?... probably. but i really don't care. The last Miss Alabama that won was the first phsyically handicapped Miss America, its not like i'm a stalker...i just remember b/c we have an umbrella with the Huntsville Times on it, which has a story about her on it. I dunno why we have a Huntsville Times umbrella, but we do...i guess alabama pride comes in all forms.
There is a meeting at school tomorrow about college. hooray... except every time i go to one of these things it makes me super nervous...like everyone else is so ahead of me on things. probably because they are...for instance perhaps they have an idea on where they are applying.
I'm very irritated at Chris because he said he was going to call me, but i recieved no call.

No more school please. i do not enjoy it and i just want to sleep the year away.
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Wednesday, September 1st, 2004

Time:9:14 pm.
Hi C.H.R.I.S.!!! see i do mention you! i too do not want you to get raped via the buttocks by another rugby player.
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Monday, August 30th, 2004

Subject:Check out the hook as my dj revolves it.
Time:11:52 pm.
Am i a loser because i'm going to call in sick to work in order to go to school? i hope so. I don't wanna go back to school at all. i don't want summer either though, i hate both, i don't want to apply or go to college. i just want to hang out, for the rest of my freaking life. Hm, school should be lovely though, considering there is no ceiling, the middle school is shut off, and it smells beautiful. AND, subschool 1 and 2 are completely gone. ahhh...senior year

i got two new pairs of sweat pants today. they are my new uniform. and i do plan on wearing sweatpants every day now that i have 10 pair.

EMILY!!! I have breaking NEWS from the burke connection! do you remember the people that moved into your pipestem to the right of your house (if you're at goldfield lane)...with the wierd ass guy who had a kid!?!?! Appearently he is bi-polar and beat up this 17 yr old kid and then kidnapped him!!! he took him into his car with some friends and they held the kid hostage in the house. and they called the kid's friends and demanded a ransom. UMMMMM...crazy. I feel safe being down the street...like a minute away. i hope he kidnaps me...

I tried to quit work and they were basically like..."no". It was nice.

Lockers tomorrow and i get my god damned application for a parking space. I best get one if stupid Lake Braddock knows whats good for them.

mmmm sweat pants.
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Tuesday, August 24th, 2004

Subject:i hate being alone b/c i hate myself
Time:12:10 am.
I think i might be in your way. I don't want to hold you back, or take away from what you might have. I don't want you to start resenting my phone calls or the fact that i need you. I don't think you need me as much as i thought you did...or maybe even at all. I think i'm starting to become a hassle to you. You say you miss me...but only after i say it first. I'm here...thinking of you every second and wanting to hear your voice and when i talk to you it seems like you wish you were talking to someone else. Like you weren't being suffocated by me. I don't want to feel like i'm overbearing. I want to feel like you want/need to talk to me, because i want and desparately need to talk to you. I feel like if i come to visit i'll just get in your way. Like i'd have to ask for attention or time...i don't want to have to take you away from what you're creating for yourself.I don't think you need me...i wish you did. I'm worried if i come out to visit you'll see that i'm not that special and that you like it better with out me there bugging you. I think i'm already annoying you, just talking about coming out. I don't want to guilt trip you into having to talk to me. I don't want you to say that you miss me because its a response to what i said. I just wish you'd make me feel special and wanted...but i don't think either one of us thinks that i am...

I wish you weren't gone and things didn't change but what i'm most scared about is that you'll like the change so much that you won't want me around anymore.

I am so selfish. i hate it.
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Sunday, August 22nd, 2004

Time:2:11 am.
i'm lonely...and cold. I have no energy either. I just want to curl up into a little ball and sleep until things work themselves out. Maybe it's a mood but it doesn't seem fleeting. I hate when it's quiet but i can't sleep. i hate having excessive time because it gives me too much time to think about things and become sad. I want all these things i can't have. I want my life...before. Everyone is moving forward but i hold my ground here...maybe i should move forward too. i don't know how.
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Saturday, August 21st, 2004

Time:1:42 am.
i like how SOMEONE said "come online at 1:30, b/c i want to talk to you" and like a good girlfriend i did and it is now 1:40 and i'm so tired and i just want to go to sleep...so please come online soon. pllllleeeeaaaassssee!
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Tuesday, August 17th, 2004

Time:12:41 am.
I worked today...from 2-4 and then i went in AGAIn from 8-9. crazy. Veronica worked i think from 7-9:30 soo we both were bitter. AND b/c of this we have decided to stir some shit up...b/c we're bored with nothing going on and yeah...its time to make some stuff happen or else i'll go crazy. What else??? I'm hyper...and i'm thirsty. I MISS CHRISTOPHER...i think i will have separation anxiety when he leaves. HMMMM...i hope i get smoothie king tomorrow. On Friday Diane got me a peach smoothie from Mr. Smootie and it was delicious, but i prefer my mango one to be honest. I'm tired...i feel ugly. (PERHAPS B/C I AM) but there have to be some ugly people in the world, not everyone can be beautiful. I'm trying to think of what to write for college essays. nothing too emotional but nothing flighty either. Its hard god damn. Its like this big game that i don't know the rules too. I just want to get some done so i am not stressing out in Jan. b/c i am pretty sure i'm not applying early anywhere...i feel sick all of a sudden. i seriously love my friends...they rock.that is all for now.


KATIE (not KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKatttie)
p.s. only veronica understands that.
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Monday, August 16th, 2004

Subject:jump back three times
Time:9:46 pm.
Damn...i love money. I wanna go to la playa, soon! i think i might turn into a yuppie...hmm. Lemme think here for a second...I have MONDAY, TUESDAY, and WEDNESDAY off. but tuesday i'm off to William and Mary for an interview, and i am semi nervous. oh well, who cares if i don't get in? me...kinda. sorta. okay, a lot, a whole lot, a shit load of an amount. What can you do though, honestly? nothing, but impress at this interview, but back to basics here. I bought some shit today, which i am excited about, but more about this never. I'm kinda hyper. quiero ir a Georgetown! yes...and the beach too, as mentioned above. GOD DAMN, i don't want to do this crazy ass AP government summer project, its like supposed to be 8 pages on Kerry and Bush and their strategies, funding, numbers, stances, etc. But, i gotta do well so i can again succeed. When do AP scores come in, anyone.... lets not even discuss how miserable i did on AP European, like how i took a nap during the test, but i think i did OK at US. cross your fingers little bees. See Ya Later, Hope everyone is having an okay time. AISHA is in Nueva York, i am jealous, but somebody has gots to keeps down the home-front, then i will force a group of people to go tubbing. if its the last thing i do. Emilia: Veronica and I wanna come visit you in OH! Canada sometime...

finito
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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004

Time:10:13 pm.
I think you suck sometimes. I think you're really inconsiderate and only think about yourself and practically everyone else before me. Thank you lots, it makes me feel extra special!
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Monday, August 9th, 2004

Time:12:06 am.
I have this feeling like if summer lasted any longer than it already does i'd go crazy...stir crazy and what not. summer is fun for a bit and then it really sucks...a lot. Its this wierd time where you have way much time to think and feel vulnerable and desperate and lonely. I hate being lonely, and although i am during the school year i think its easier to get through. I think the biggest problem i have is this uncontrollable desire to be part of the group...and on one hand i want to change that and be comfy with myself but on the other i don't, b/c i'd be miserable outside of the group. I think i need to become more involved in things, perhaps? i dunno. my mood on things changes all the time. I just want to be happy. I keep on thinking about college too. i know i've said this a million times but i have mixed feelings about going off...like i love my life here most of the time and i don't want to leave my friends, but my friends are ready to move on so maybe i should be too. I think i just have to go and be thrown in the situation and know that whatever happens...happens. I think i need to grow up. i feel underappreciated a lot of the times, but then again what do i really do that deserves appreciation. I need to get away on vacation...from my summer vacation.

On a Side Note: i am so happy that John Edwards is running as Kerry's running mate. So happy that i am going to John Edwards' house in Georgetown and take a picture b/c i love him so much. I seriously hope that Kerry wins this election and next and then Edwards will be considered as the Democrats choice for 2012 or some year far off in the future. Hooray for that prospect!!!
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